I see pretty faces everywhere, i see innocent ones, then i see those everyone dislike. Yet sometimes i cant help but wonder how their true hearts feel, what exactly is on their mind. People go after idols, ogling at pretty faces, yet how much do they know exactly know about their inner self. Beauty is perceptive, many agree that superficial beauty do not last long, yet everyone goes after it for first impression, for more opportunities in life, which manipulates man to gradually change and then desire such beauty to feel accepted and achieve higher goals in life.

Sometimes i hate myself indulging in those pretty clothes, shopping online, going gaga over materalistic goods. It started from wanting to be more presentable out of the house, yet slowly it turns into a hobby, something all women love, to pamper themselves with, then who knows perhaps it may turn into an obsession some day, where you completely forget about your inner side which people tend to overlook on. & that's what im most afraid of, to turn into such a statue; Like an attractive book with no content.

People who are often disliked by people, perhaps are the most true to themselves, they dont follow the crowd or do anything just to feel accepted by the majority. They believe in their own perceptives, it may be wrong, yet at least they will never be listed as one of the hypocrites.Completely different from them are obviously the popular, where everyone look up to, & there, who knows they may be just like a mannequin, copycats i can say, or worst pure fashion victims?

So have i actually grown up? Am i beginning to adapt to this pragmatic society? Or have i just subconsciously turned into one of them just to feel comfortable & socially accepted?

Just wondering.


Love,
AKQ

Everything's getting from good to better on my side lately. School is forever so happening w/ interesting events every single day, accompanied by our 'murderer', 'follow me' & 'ccc' games during our break-times(: Every moment is so filled with fun & laughter that i strongly believe my face is gonna be filled with 'crow's feet' soon. Those girls really do cheer me up, a plenty lot(: They made me choose to smile, instead of sitting there and wallowing in sorrow over things that cannot be changed. Now i can say, even if the outcome is not what i expected, in the end, i'm still proud to say "I have tried & all i can do now is to try harder; To stay optimistic & never give up". Thanks a million, sweetie pies (y'know exactly who you are) <3!

I'm not taking certain things that hard-core any longer, especially in matters like relationships. "Nobody can decide who are your good friends, except you" Some people may not be always around you physically, but you know they will always be there for you, no matter what happens; The TRUE ONES; Some who commit through small actions & few words, which only you can feel it & keep it to heart; The SILENT ONES; Some who bring you laughter & joy everyday though they may not know much about you & your life; The FUN GANG; Some who you thought are worth to treasure yet eventually, you realised perhaps they are not considered one to begin with, or things you all go through together just doesnt bring you both that far; The WRONG ONES. Just found out there's so many definitions to that simple word & its up to you to decide for yourself. So follow your heart & you can never be wrong(:

P.S. I am so looking forward to having a PICNIC at Marina Barrage this Saturday! :D


Love,
AKQ